i wouldnt say im torn between two. and im not confused either. i know exactly what im doing. and i guess thats the worst part. im not in love right now, and i know i probably wont be for awhile. i like ed. hes a good friend and we have a lot fun together. yes we have a past, but unlike him i can think about it and now be effected. but yes, when im with him, i want him to remember the past and think of what he lost. but at the same time, i honestly do love hanging out with him.

i like ben, hes awesome. he calls me, texts me all the time and i love it, and basically everything about him, and i wanna be with him for a long time. but whats the hold up? no kiss?

two completely different guys that are cool. im definitely going to stay with ben for awhile because i feel loved when im with him. and thats good. so thats not gonna change. but i also, very subtely want ben to know that someone else wants me too. and i want him to fight for me, cuz lets face it, every girl wants to be fought for.

but anyway, im juggling two guys, and im not confused about my feelings. and thats bad i guess, cuz i think that makes me a whore? nahhhh, but still its unloyal. but...............i dont care.